I realize that I have not written a personal post in a while. Life with an 11 month old is busy in some ways and lazy in other ways. Recently, I realized that if I want to be lazy, I could be lazy! I do not have to get up, get dressed and go to work. I am already at work, but I can wear whatever I want! If I do not feel like going to the library for a baby activity class, I do not have to. I can decide whether to go to the grocery in the morning or in the afternoon. I can push dishes off until tomorrow. In my attempts to focus less on the negatives (which have really been dragging me down lately), I am focusing more on the positives.
My life is so different than it was one year and two years ago and that is okay! I am not saying it is a bad thing. My life is different. I enjoy different things now. I focus my time and energy on different activities that fulfill me in different and new ways.
I am still problem solving all day long. I still have to get up to an alarm clock (the baby), attend meetings (feeding times) and deliver results (take care of the baby, keep the house in order). I have more to do than I can get done in one day. I miss the social interactions from work. I miss the twice a day breaks to get coffee/tea at Starbucks. I miss my work friends.
I never imagined I would be one of those women who wanted to stay at home to raise a child. I was working in a demanding corporate world and enjoying happy hours several times a week. I would spend hours at the gym each week. I loved taking vacations to adults-only hotels. Suit shopping at Banana Republic and black heel shopping at Nordstrom were some of my favorites activities.
I am now the woman who wears the baby at the grocery store, the woman who looks up ASL baby signs for foods offered at dinner, the woman who gives her baby a wooden spoon and a wooden salad bowl to play with. Baby and me is my new normal! I am having fun!
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